20040719
20040714
[The Verve] Bittersweet Symphony
'Cause it's a bittersweet symphony, this life Trying to make ends meet You're a slave to money then you die I'll take you down the only road I've ever been down You know the one that takes you to the places where all the veins meet yeah No change, I can't change I can't change, I can't change But I'm here in my mind I am here in my mind But I'm a million different people from one day to the next I can't change my mind No, no, no, no, no, no, no,no,no,no,no,no(fading away) Well I never pray But tonight I'm on my knees yeah I need to hear some sounds that recognize the pain in me, yeah I let the melody shine, let it cleanse my mind, I feel free now But the airways are clean and there's nobody singing to me now No change, I can't change I can't change, I can't change But I'm here in my mind I am here in my mind And I'm a million different people from one day to the next I can't change my mind No, no, no, no, no, no, no I can't change I can't change it 'Cause it's a bittersweet symphony, this life Trying to make ends meet Trying to find some money then you die I'll take you down the only road I've ever been down You know the one that takes you to the places where all the veins meet yeah You know I can't change, I can't change I can't change, I can't change But I'm here in my mind I am here in my mind And I'm a million different people from one day to the next I can't change my mind No, no, no, no, no I can't change my mind no, no, no, no, no, I can't change Can't change my body, no, no, no I'll take you down the only road I've ever been down I'll take you down the only road I've ever been down Been down Ever been down Ever been down Ever been down Ever been down That you've ever been down That you've ever been down
20040702
Ramblings of a mad man
A wide ring of light surrounds a full moon tonight, signalling rains to come. This is either explained by science or has been accepted by some people as true by its recurring coincidence, either way... i don't care.
In front of me is a tower with three red dots of light on it. Below it, a small structure with its roof arched with a style that resembles something between Grotesque and Romanesque. Beside it, still another one, smaller, yet to the same affect. All of these are on top of an edifice whose architecture is quite modern.
The road is curving to the left and i am to sought a place to the right. A man appears, with a face so mundane, i can't even remember how he looks like. I thought of it as a possible end, so i walked to the side where a pole would separate us. But he waited, asking me what time it is, i responded, "a las diyes," he asked again and i told him again it was ten. Then he walked away and spared my life.
A few meters from there, i saw that death has taken its toll. It was a body that's still alive, no blood spilled, but its inevitable end will come slowly. Surely, Igme didn't let this one escape his spiral spray of death.
Crossing the road while barely looking at what's to come, i made my way to the other side. Here, it's hard to see the moonlight, with trees and buildings covering it. There are trees leaning to the fences, and from the other side, are plants reaching out its leaves like how a convict would reach out his hands behind prison bars. The grass tries to cover the sidewalk, but fails to grow on concrete. There are manholes covered with lids that don't fit. To my right, cars speeding to get home, or to get somewhere else. To my left, an advertisement by the government showing how see-thru fences show the "beauty" of their buildings. It's ironic that these ads covers the fences almost entirely. A few steps hence, i got to a part full of tree shadows, almost to the point of not seeing anything, but i've been thru this place before, and have almost memorized where the puddles are. I got thru with dry shoes.
Below a shed, i saw three men approaching, all looking at me (or at something behind me). I passed thru them, then i tried to force my self to look back while stopping myself. It was out of paranoia and curiosity that i wanted to look, but my shadow assured me that they're not behind me. So i let each of my feet get in front of the other, alternately, of course.
A memory of a street i've often seen these past months came back to me. A night when Anna and i were looking for some water, and couldn't find a store with change, so we walked more than a quarter of Katipunan and back, still with no water. Giving up, we just drank at the meatshop -- oh, there's water there. Back to her place we just watched a movie and slept. Things like that always seem to pop up in my head. It must be because i'm already feeling my sweat crawling down my shirt and my bag that seemed heavier... it must be that i'm tired.
Seeing bars crowded with people, and a carwash with more than twenty guys staring at a tv set, i got a bit annoyed and hastened my steps. Then, i reached a row of closed banks with its chains hanging on little poles to keep people from parking their cars overnight. Or at least, i think it's for that purpose. I jumped over those chains to turn left and cross the street to Little Ceasar's. Another right would then lead to a street to with a small grocery store.
There were two dogs in the middle of the road, so i stayed on the side. Walking beside a van let me pass unnoticed, or so i thought. A dog barked to my direction, it seems. I looked back and saw the bigger dog was barking at some other guy, or rather on some other guys... they're riding a bike, one pedaling and one standing on the rods sticking out the hind wheel. But i could've sworn i saw another man there carrying a bag. I must've seen myself in the past. And again, another fantasy comes to mind... about traveling thru time. I had to get a grip of myself, tho. I was gonna cross a road.
Still procrastinating while walking (?), i didn't noticed much of anything around me. That is, until i stepped on shit... after that, i can't stop my self from looking down, and watching out for each step.
Left on the corner, there are some people playing basketball, and some watching. A big green gate stood in front of me. I knocked, and then, i'm home.
20040527
i got a gmail account - 1000MB on the web at last! [eman]
yipee! I finally got my gmail account! please send ALL your forwarded messages here, and leave my other email adds fwd-free. thanks.
i'll try saving all my mp3's in another gmail account once i get it... more on that later.
BTW, it's me, eman.
that must've been the longest list of email add's i've _typed_ in one form! i hope gmail has a good addressbook feature...
i know i'm not observing proper netiquette by sending this to a bunch of people (and all in the To: field) instead of just posting it on my site or on a weblog, but WTF! i've got 1000MB of webmail... if you could point me to a slashdotter that wouldn't be happy with that, i'll give you all the money i have right now (around 50+ PhP, i think)
Anyway, this seems like a good way to test gmail's "robustness" - not like it's a really effective test, but just in case. I'll add some messages to some people, and please reply... i'm thinking 'bout making this my (semi) permanent email add once it gets out of beta.
Pa: i got a gmail account, i'll give you a link later when you wake up.
Mark: how are you doing? haven't heard from you for a looooong time.
Dan: again, HAPPY BIRTHDAY (belated) - decided to stay up... still have to finish some stuff
Akelle: haven't checked your site yet, any problems updating it?
Jarek: i'm still downloading the song... the effing thing only has ONE active source!
Eric: how's work?
Ghie: hello!
Anna: thanks for the mp3's and wma's... still haven't finished listening to them, while converting ALL your wma's to mp3's AND all my ogg's to mp3's
Kacy: bakit lagi kang wala sa bahay niyo 'pag tumatawag ako?
Jamie: How're you and Jasmine doing?
all: this is the one email add that i'll openly accept fwd's and even spam! so, if your message is not urgent, send it here. If it IS URGENT, you know where to send it... either in bloodpet.tk, mipmag, or rimatmag.
See you when i see you. iamme, eman Site: http://www.bloodpet.tk/ Public Key: gpg -keyserver pgp.mit.edu -recv-keys 4D12B5DA --- A bird in the hand makes it awfully hard to blow your nose.
20040515
20040511
Cool new Blogger
20040403
I have four other blogs, it'd be better if you'd just read my entries there, cause i can't connect here (blogger.com) over the network. Still haven't figured out what's wrong with it.
Anyway, here are my other blogs:
- Music: bloodpet.modblog.com
- Linux/BSD (or other OS): www.mblog.com/bloodpet/
- Programming: bloodpet.blog-city.com
- misc: bloodpet.tblog.com
Of course, don't forget to check my site (bloodpet.tk) after April 2004, it'll (most probably) be finished by then. I'll try to integrate all of my blogs there... esp the ones with rss feeds... RSS is Great!
This _might_ be my last post here, so i'll have to remember everything... Oh, btw, here are the email adresses you could contact me with:
emancalso[AT]bloodpet[DOT]tk me[AT]rimatmag[DOT]com bloodpet[AT]mail[DOT]nu iamme_eman[AT]mailcity[DOT]com
you just have to replace [AT] with "@" and [DOT] with "." -- obviously.
I believe that's all, and now... i take my leave.
20040319
Unearthed entry (cut)
...that's the first thing my computer told me. A new moon, and also, a new distro... most probably. I'm getting a set of MDK cd's. Still gotta test it, and compare it to Slackware and FreeBSD, but i think it'll do fine on my dad's PC.
I hate chasing buses... i almost chased one again earlier.
Yesterday was great! Lots of people went to C&G, and we sold more than a thousand Pesos worth of shirts and journals.
After that we celebrated... by drinking of course. How else would we celebrate a successful activity? We left early, before 1 am. So when i went with Anna to her place to borrow her DVDs, we decided to have a drink again somewhere near her place... bought Dr Pepper at Select... hangout again a little, and went back to her place again, supposedly to watch movies, but we're so tired, we just slept... tho, i almost didn't have any sleep... Anyway, in the morning Anna (the inconsiderate girl, as she calls herself) doesn't want to get up. So i tried to make her get up for almost two hours... it worked, she's up when i left her room. And i think she's mad at me for wasting her time... forcing her to get up when she should've just slept til it's almost time...
When i got home, i recieved an email from Eric saying what numbers are to be answered... couldn't answer them cause someone borrowed my book, but PJ helped me with it.
I came 30 minutes late for the AMAT 115 exam, but i almost finished it, so that's ok.
Regarding the practicum, Linux Online still hasn't replied, so maybe my code is not good enough for them. Anyway, i just joined Adrian and PJ to apply for San Miguel, i hope we get in... otherwise, i'd have to look again.
Now, i'm sleepy, getting bored in front of the computer, waiting for someone else to come home, so i could sleep... they didn't bring the key, when they left!
Just finished searching for Bring me the Disco King from the Underworld soundtrack... that's what Anna's been singing over and over last night.
My room's so messy, i ALMOST couldn't stand it... but it could use a little more... chaos.